Sunday, February 15, 2009
The past few weeks I have been feeling like I have been influenced by things around me to the point that I have found myself losing a bit of my authenticity. I looked at some of my work and did not recognize who's it was. My blogs have taken on a character that really is not truly me. How does that happen? I don't copy other people, that has always been something I'm am sensitive to, mostly because it has happened to me so often, I haven't intentionally changed what I produce to match or be like anyone, this unrecognizable me has just sort of showed up, and I think she is boring as heck! I love the feeling of inspiration I get from many sources, including all the wonderful blogs I have discovered. Today is a very stormy wet and windy day here which has allowed us to somewhat take the day off from what has been our excessive busy schedule lately, and this feeling I have been having motivated me to look back at some of my older post, and some of my previous creations, yes, I have certainly strayed from my authentic self, the one I am happy and comfortable with. I believe I started putting expectations on myself when I realized others were looking, they were really paying attention to what I had to share. That ego that I thought I had recognized and put in its proper place had some how tricked me into trying to be what I thought everyone was looking for. I am hoping with this awareness I can gracefully return to my authentic self and be comfortable with that being enough. By the way my authentic self is very wordy! Thanks for coming by, I really enjoy sharing on this blog.